Waiting to interview

I’m about fifteen minutes away from my first job interview in years, and I’m only vaguely nervous. Partially because I don’t know that I can afford to take the job.

First world problem, I know. Then again, so are the student loans, credit card debt, and mortgage that would make the difference.

I’ve been thinking a lot about this one – it would cut my salary by a third, but would give me a LOT more time to write, publish, teach, an do research. You know, the stuff I want to do.

My current job keeps me afloat… But does horrible things to my stress levels. When you can feel your blood pressure rise as you head to work, it’s not a good sign.

So take this as a lesson from the old guy- avoid the debt. Do what you want now. Avoid the jobs that kill your soul – and escape as soon as you can.

I had a lot of anxiety leaving the military because I suddenly wouldn’t have a rock-solid same paycheck every month. That stability is addictive and seductive. It will keep you places you hate, just because it is certain.

I don’t know if I’ll take this job – or even of they’ll offer it to me. But trust me, you don’t want to be in the situation where you have to choose between a job you hate and a job you can’t afford.

(and if anyone reading this is looking for a writer/sociologist/ teacher/ computer geek to hire… I’m looking for you. )

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