And it changed my mind about both.
The concept of people being on a spectrum of sexuality didn’t bother me. The changeability, however, did. And it’s bothered me for a long time.
Alan was a friend while I was in college. He was somewhat effeminate in nature – moreso than the openly gay friend I had – but had a girlfriend who was, as the kids say today, hawt. But because of his effeminate nature, he routinely was teased about his sexuality. Less than a year after I left town, I heard that he had “decided that since everyone was teasing him about being gay, he might as well be gay,” and was happy since. I figured this to be so much bullshit, and a capitulation of will under social pressure.
Recently I heard about the “LUGs” phenomenon – Lesbian Until Graduation. It didn’t matter why the sexual status changed, just the mere fact of its changing was a signal that they weren’t serious. Again, perhaps it was kowtowing to social pressures (though heteronormative ones), or graduation signaling an end to an experimental phase. Regardless, they weren’t “really” gay. Just bisexual.
The conflation of conscious choice and change is a dangerous one, and even though this essay challenges exactly that, I still find it difficult to keep them separate in my mind. I didn’t choose to be heterosexual, and the gay friends I’ve known have unanimously reported “just knowing” that they were gay.
And this suggests that it’s not as easy as all that.
Over time, my taste in women has changed – quite a bit. We don’t think anything about that kind of dramatic transition – but if it happens to cross a gender line, then we somehow think that it’s qualitatively different. I don’t think I can buy that anymore.
I do feel that the analysis of heteronormist attacks is overly naive and trusting; while separating change in behavior and choice might seem natural to one who is used to constructionist tendencies, it is difficult for the average person. (Or in other words – we shouldn’t be bothering to argue whether sexual orientation is inborn, we should instead be arguing that it’s not for others to dictate to you.)
It is difficult to separate out these actions from the labels. The social consequences of divorcing ourselves from easily categorizable groups is a higher degree of chaos and confusion (“Hi, I think you’re hot… oh, are you not responding because you’re into guys this week, or is it me?”) that our society simply doesn’t have the tools or tolerance to deal with yet.
There are two people in the world – those who categorize people into groups, and those who don’t. Discuss.