When you’re troubleshooting yourself and your own emotional state, it can be useful to have various and multiple models of what’s going on. Having multiple models means that you don’t have to ignore facts or evidence to shoehorn experiences into a model that doesn’t apply; having models at all allows you to look at your experiences from different points of view.
Today, I want to contribute the idea of directionality as a model. This idea will (hopefully) allow you to more easily find the area(s) or place(s) that need alteration to remove emotional pain in relation to your self-identity.
In this model, external pressure would be the dissonance between how you are (or think you are) perceived by others and your own self-identity. Internal pressure would be the dissonance between your self-identity and how you present (or are compelled to present) to the world at large.
For example, external pressure could be where a competent worker was viewed as incompetent… say, due to race, gender, or the like. Or if someone is misunderstood and wrongly judged. It could also encompass situations where one thinks others are judging oneself, even if they’re not actually doing so.
Conversely, internal pressure would be someone who is, say, in the closet about their sexuality, is forced to hide (or lie about) their religious beliefs (or lack thereof), background, or any other such element that makes up their own identity.
I suspect that a vast majority of issues are external pressure – and I’d even say that most of those are due to perception rather than reality… or in other words, brain weasels.
This model can be practically applied to identify the directionality of the emotional response, so you could address it more directly. That is, if I’m having an emotional response because of something external (including brain weasels) that’s different than if it’s generated from something internal.
In general, external originating stuff often does require anything other than attitude changes, clarifying communication, or stopping brain weasels. That would resolve the conflicting emotions and allow action to take place.
On the other hand, internally originating dissonance requires one to make changes with oneself – or even one’s own sense of self – to relieve the emotional pressure.
I’ve found this particular model somewhat useful; does it make sense to you? What do you think? Let me know in the comments!